I have struggled with sex addicting behaviors since 10 years old, being 45+ now, it has been a long painful and embarrassing 35+ year journey.
The byproducts have been multiple affairs, sexually transmitted disease, unplanned pregnancies, abortions and ultimately becoming an Adulterer. ⠀
I am free now, because God’s grace and mercy have become real in my life. The things, I have been through, were to go through and not to become my identity. ⠀
My situation was further complicated by revealing my addiction to ‘church’ people, this became a source of more rejection and shame. ⠀
For years I wore the addiction like a garment and could not function without binging and purging.⠀
Over time, I realized my behaviors were the fruit and not the root. The root was demonic, not in the ‘scary movie sense’, but in that my thoughts were not based on the owners manual, God’s word. I began realizing God’s plan and that I was valuable because of him. ⠀
We are fearfully and wonderfully made. Freedom from masturbation, pornography and fornication is a reality. ⠀
I now exist as a conduit of God’s Love, His grace, his mercy and His Light. A light to illuminate the path for others and a light of Hope, Help and Healing. ⠀
To read the stories of King David and Rahab the Harlot change my life, I am not defective and have never been. God has always been by my side and my purpose preexists my presence in this body.
My ordeals have made me humble and empathetic towards broken people. What the enemy made for evil, God has taken and made for good.
You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people.