You were fearfully and wonderfully made by design. Why is that not enough? As your LORD, it is enough for ME and that decision is final. Why do the opinions of others matter, so much? Investigate this, dig up the root.
When you remove the roots of bondage from your past, rest will come. The rest will rejuvenate and produce an authority to govern what is seen, what is heard and the accesses to your soul.
The wrong seeds sown became the wrong roots and a bad root equals a bad fruit. Confusion is a seed, doubt is a seed, worry is a seed and they all produce fear. They are all a distractions design to derail and to separate you from ME.
The remedy to the resulting fear, the confusion, the doubt and the worry is to forgive fast, avoid conflict and to protect the peace of your spirit. You only have one life and one purpose to live, I AM the only One that reconcile one to the other.
Colossians 1:21-22
This includes you who were once far away from God. You were his enemies, separated from him by your evil thoughts and actions. Yet now he has reconciled you to himself through the death of Christ in his physical body. As a result, he has brought you into his own presence, and you are holy and blameless as you stand before him without a single fault.