Missing MY voice and MY movements is a part of knowing ME. To know who I Am is to know, who I Am not. I Am Lord over what is clear and the unclear, the extravagant and the mundane. In either extreme, MY plan for you will prevail.
In the chase you will find ME, in your pursuit of ME, you will know, what I value. Many use MY name, but do not know ME. I want you to know ME, as I know you. To have a oneness that can only come through the intricacies of intimacy.
Take down your guards and give ME access to your inner most parts. Allow ME to enter your secret place where your deepest hurts are stored. Silence the ego, dampen the pride, pray against arrogance and repent from piousness.
You have not lost anything, life is in the lessons learned. That still small constant voice, that you keep hearing is mine. The one that says to give generously, to forgive those who despitefully use you and to love those that are unloveable.
My son, if you receive my words and treasure up my commandments with you, making your ear attentive to wisdom and inclining your heart to understanding; yes, if you call out for insight and raise your voice for understanding, if you seek it like silver and search for it as for hidden treasures, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God.