My hearts desire is to see people where they are and to see myself in them, without reservations or hesitations. To become familiar with who they are, who they are not and who they can become.
I recognize, my role is to root for the transformation, even if they choose not to become that person. As I advocate for them, I am in fact, advocating for myself, because the thoughts that rule my heart are my choosing.
Acknowledging my choices, leads me to search my own heart for the same fears, disconnected thoughts and patterns of pain. I must search my heart, because a healthy heart and a healthy mind, would not reject God.
When anything in my members seeks to conspire against LOVE and conspire with fear, it must be examined throughly, because that thought is an enemy to GOD. This real enemy of GOD is not external, the real enemy is inside me.
The real enemy, I have feed and nurtured in private. A beast chained and locked away from sight, feeding on every fear, insecurity and hurt. He grows daily. A day is coming, that either it will kill me or I will kill it.
I have discovered this principle of life—that when I want to do what is right, I inevitably do what is wrong. I love God’s law with all my heart. But there is another powere within me that is at war with my mind. This power makes me a slave to the sin that is still within me.