The pain you are holding, must die with you. The effects of the wrongs endured has cost your bloodlines enough. Your father, his father and his grandfather have all paid the same debts. Break the curse now.
Make a solemn oath to actively break the chains of bondage by living exclusively in the light. Eat the light, drink the light, read the light and consume what is light and bears fruit.
The debts of the past are destroyed on Calvary. Jesus paid it all, HE went to Hades capturing sin and death, so that you would never experienced either. Christ has covered you.
You are free to live in the light of forgiveness, the light of peace and the light of joy. This is your spiritual birthright and it cannot be taken, but you like many have unknowingly forfeited the privileges of your New Birth in Christ.
Therefore we have been buried with Him through baptism into death, so that as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, so we too might walk in newness of life.