Here I stand again, asking for forgiveness. I am arrogant Lord and full of pride. I have no excuses to offer, what I did was my choice. My ego gets me into trouble and my feelings are not trustworthy. I am perverted in my thinking and I need a change.
I have tried to fix myself by myself and now know I cannot do it on my own, I need you. Like David, create in me a clean heart, purge me with hyssop and renew a right spirit within me. Renew my thinking.
My intentions are always good and I do not fully understand why, but I behave in a way, that I detest and in the end do exactly the opposite of my convictions. The hypocrite is me, the liar is me and the pious person is me.
I thank you for the wavering and unflinching love. Your love for me is better than the love I have for myself. Help me to love myself and then love others in that same way. I thank you for your grace and that your mercies are new every morning.
Psalms 51:10-11
Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me. Do not banish me from your presence, and don’t take your Holy Spirit from me.
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