Hard times are revealing and a hard moment always tells the truth. Exposure is a healer and a flaw known is a deliverer. Own what you have said and done, especially in the heat of a moment.
A truth discovered sets you free, but a lie preserved is a slave master. The freedom your heart seeks is dependent on where you align your faith. Many will identify and falsify in support, only to justify their own shame.
To get to your destination, you must accept the straightaways, the curves, the stops and road blocks. Simply because, you must come to a stop, to reevaluate what you believe and how you behave is not weakness.
The weakness is in failing to do so, allowing your ego and pride to control your ability, to become better through making mistakes. If you are always right and never wrong, then you cannot grow.
Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!