You are expecting people to stand in the gap for you, when that gap was created for ME and by ME. Pray to ME for what you need and stop playing the victim, no man owes you anything, but to love you.
Every seed is destined for the darkness. The darkness is the first fight, that the seed must overcome. The anointing you carry has a great cost, this is the only way. What is inside you is so powerful, that it must be forged through fire.
Whatever lessons you choose to avoid are the same lessons, you will eventually have to repeat. The Anger, offense, loneliness, rejection, unforgiveness and the like are the instructors. As you allow them to go unresolved, you are committing self sabotage.
Make a shift in your mind and recognize the pain as a privilege. You have been hurt deeply, but these are MY tools and your life is MY Masterpiece. Your commitment and your ability in the process will determine the level of MY Glory in the outcomes.
Ephesians 2:8-10
For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them.
I Might Be a Prophet 